Hey, hi, hello! Happy Tuesday!
I’ve been struggling a bit to figure out what I want to say today. Once again, I’m trying to find my balance after a busy, social weekend — and trying my best to do it with grace.
I’ve fallen into a pattern lately: I thrive during the week because I’m sticking to my routines, and then the weekend comes… and everything goes out the window. I did a better job giving myself rest between events this time, but I still struggled to maintain my movement routines. And over the last few weeks, I’ve learned something important:
My daily walks and yoga are not optional. They are non-negotiable if I want to stay centered.
I can be doing everything else — my morning pages, my nutrition, my hydration — but if I let my intentional movement slip, I find myself struggling sooner rather than later.
🌞 Getting Back on Track
Today I’m focusing on getting myself back on track, and honestly? It feels pretty good. I’m definitely still tired and dragging a bit, but the work is invaluable, so I’m pushing through.
I started by getting out of bed within minutes of my alarm going off, even though every cell in my body was begging me to stay asleep. But consistency means waking up on time even when nothing on my schedule forces me to — so I did it.
Next, I stepped outside for five quiet, distraction-free minutes of direct sunlight to reset my circadian rhythm. Just me, the dogs, deep breaths, gentle stretching, and early morning light.
Then I sat down and did my morning pages and affirmations. After that, I made my breakfast shake and tried to start this blog post.
🧘♀️ When the Words Won’t Come
Writing felt weird this morning — like I was saying too much and not enough at the same time. Nothing felt aligned. My voice felt muddy. And then, out of nowhere, I got intense tension on the left side of my neck.
It was like my body grabbed my attention and said, “Hey… the words aren’t blocked — you are.”
So I listened.
I closed my laptop, finished my shake, changed clothes, and rolled out my yoga mat. I did two Yoga With Adriene videos for the neck and upper body, and with each stretch I could feel myself dropping back into my body. My breath deepened. My shoulders softened. My mind quieted.
When I tried to write again… nope. Still blocked.
So I closed my laptop again, put on my sneakers, turned on the newest episode of The Mel Robbins Podcast, and hopped on the walk pad for my usual 45 minutes. With every step, I could feel myself coming home to myself again.
Afterward, I showered and got dressed for the day.
🌀 Therapy Round Two
Today I also have my second appointment with my new therapist, and I’m really looking forward to it. Last week was mostly introductions — the real work starts today.
Last week she asked what my 3-month goals were, what “success” would look like. I wasn’t sure at the time, so I gave myself space to think about it. Here’s what I came up with:
- ✨ Find purpose — motivation for each day
- ✨ Build more independence
- ✨ Worry less about what others think
- ✨ Fall asleep easier and faster
- ✨ Feel more confident overall
💜 Gentle, Not Lenient
Today doesn’t feel glamorous — but it does feel important.
I’m honoring my routines. I’m honoring my progress. I’m honoring the promises I’ve made to myself.
I’m also learning what “being gentle with myself” actually means.
In the moment, it’s easy to say, “I’m tired, skipping my walk is self-care.” It feels gentle. It sounds gentle. But it often pulls me further away from balance.
Real gentleness means care, attention, and affection — even when I’m tired, even when I’ve lost my footing, even when I’ve made a mistake.
I’m reparenting myself — and it’s messy, but meaningful. I’m showing up on the good days, the bad days, and the blah days because I know I’m worth the effort.
This isn’t about perfection. I’m not trying to wake up someday and never stumble again. The goal is to love and nurture myself through the stumbles, not in spite of them.
The more I keep going, the easier it becomes to find my center after a misstep. And with every stumble, I learn something valuable.
I’m not failing — I’m learning. And that is the most important part.
💬 Your Turn
What helps you find your balance again after you’ve lost it? I’d truly love to hear.
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Love always,
Bailz 💜
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