Today has been a better day. I still feel a little off balance, but I can feel myself gently moving in the right direction. Little by little. I even high-fived the mirror twice this morning. 🙌
I’m taking better care of myself, though I’ll be honest—my mind is still racing a bit.
🩺 Scanxiety & Staying Grounded
Yesterday afternoon, I had a CT scan with contrast dye. It’s been almost two years since my last chemotherapy treatment, and recently, a few of my old symptoms have started creeping back in. A few weeks ago, I had bloodwork done and my oncologist said everything looked good—but because of the symptoms, he ordered this scan to be safe.
I go in for results tomorrow morning. I’m hopeful that everything is fine. But… it’s hard not to think about it. The waiting, the what-ifs, the heavy swirl of uncertainty—it’s a lot.
So in the meantime, I’m doing my best to stay grounded, stay gentle, and keep my mind occupied with things that bring me joy.
🛁 Cozy Comforts & Simple Wins
Right now, self-care looks like this:
- Wearing my comfiest clothes 🧦
- Snuggling with the dogs 🐶
- Watching The Office Superfan episodes 📺
- Resting when I feel like it 💤
- Taking a long bath while listening to The Little Book of Hygge 🕯️
- Hydrating, eating, and staying on top of my supplements 🥤🍽️💊
I’ve tidied the house a little—just enough to feel clear-minded—but I’m not pushing myself. I ran the robot vacuum/mop, did the dishes, and straightened up the kitchen and living room. And honestly? That’s enough for today.
If I do more, great. If I don’t, that’s okay too.
💜 Grace Over Guilt
There are no expectations today. No lists, no pressure, no “shoulds.” Just soft care. Just showing up for myself in small, meaningful ways.
My body and spirit are asking for rest, so I’m doing my best to listen. I’ll keep watching my comfort show. I’ll roll out my yoga mat for a few slow stretches. I’ll breathe deeply. I’ll try—really try—to give myself grace.
Slow and steady. Gentle and kind. That’s the only path forward right now.
Thanks for being here with me.
Stay tuned for more tales from the life of Bailz 💜
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